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Chapter 3
Lincoln's injuries. His breathing was shallow and he was in and out of lucid consciousness. But she had gotten a weak, "Hey Doc," from him as he floated. To give Sara room to work, Veronica left the room to go unload the groceries. Michael stood back in the door watching Sara work, but after a few seconds he pushed off the frame and followed Veronica outside. She was unlocking the trunk to the car when she felt him standing just behind her. "I thought I made it clear to you that she was not to be involved." "I've got news for you, Michael." Veronica replied without turning around. "Right now my priority is Lincoln living through the night. And Sara is our best shot." "What about the name I gave you?" She signed with visible frustration. "A mob doctor is not our best shot." Michael challenged her assertion without opening his mouth; he did it by just narrowing his eyes. "True or False, you have information the mob wants." Veronica knew he wouldn’t play her true or false game, so she continued after only a moment's pause. "Information they want so badly they were going to use me as collateral to get you to talk. Information they were willing to kill Nick and his father over…" "Veronica," Michael implored in low tones, "I'm sorry about Nick. I really am." "Me too, but he's the one who took the deal with the devil." She replied matter-of-factly, but she swallowed a hard lump in her throat as she said it and forced herself to turn her attention back to the present. "This thing is bigger than us. It has a life of its own and we have very few allies. We can't afford to ignore the people we can trust. Do you trust Sara?" His eyes flicked from hers to the ground. "That's not the point." "It's exactly the point." Finally, he relented. "I trust her, but I don't want her getting hurt." "I know." Veronica replied in a kinder tone than the one she'd been using as she handed him several gallons of water to take into the cabin. "I'll take her back to Chicago as soon as Lincoln's out of the woods. We took precautions; nobody has to know she even left her apartment tonight." Michael didn't respond, he merely took the jugs of water into the kitchen and then headed straight back to the bedroom. From the doorway he stood for a moment observing Sara. She was murmuring soothing words to Lincoln as she assessed his injuries. As mad as he was at Veronica for going to her, he couldn't help but be fall-on-his-knees thankful she was there. Which only made the culpability he felt over her involvement heighten, the invisible noose of guilt around his chest twisting ever tighter. After a few more minutes of watching her tend to Lincoln, Michael finally spoke in an uncharacteristically small voice. "Can you help him?" Sara tore her gaze away from her patient and his injuries and directed it towards Michael. He looked and sounded like a lost little boy. Her immediate impulse was to hug him. She refrained. Instead she stood and motioned to the living room. Once out of the bedroom Veronica immediately walked over to join them. "You definitely did the right thing by not trying to remove the barbed wire yourself," she looked pointedly at Michael. "Right now I can't tell how deep the wound is and the wire is what's holding the skin together and preventing him from bleeding to death." "Can you fix it?" Veronica asked breathlessly. "He needs to go to a hospital, but I know better than to even suggest that. I think I can remove the barbed wire, but I'm going to need some help. We're going to have to stitch and repair as we go." Veronica looked green at the suggestion, fishing a bullet out of Nick had been one of the more traumatic experiences of the last month. But Michael just nodded in a business-like manner. "Okay." "We're also going to need some things, things that aren't available at the corner drug store." Veronica had been thinking about this the entire drive to Chicago and she'd made some calls to information from a disposable cell phone she'd purchased. "About ten miles from here there's a very small town, but they have a rural hospital. Can you get what you need there?" Sara crinkled her brow. "I'm sure they have what I need, getting it is another issue altogether. I can't exactly waltz in and ask for it." Veronica looked increasingly nervous. "What do you suggest?" The doctor turned and leveled her own intent gaze at Michael and challenged, "You broke out of a maximum security prison; surely you can break into a minimum security hospital. Although, no one will be leaving a door open for you this time." Michael winced inwardly at the accusation in her voice, but his reply was cool and detached. "Write down a list of what you need and I'll get it." Sara immediately shook her head. "It's too complicated. If they don't have exactly what we need, I'll have to improvise and use something else. I need to go." "Out of the question." Michael replied instantly. "I beg your pardon." Sara asked with even, yet defiant tones. "It's too dangerous." "Dangerous? You think some Barney Fife is going to gun us down?" "If we get caught…" His voice almost faltered at the prospect, "If you get caught with me…" Sara met his eye with a confidence she didn't quite feel. "We better not get caught then." *** Sara gave Veronica the small supply of bandages she'd brought from home and instructed her how to get started cleaning and bandaging the assorted cuts and abrasions on Lincoln's arms and hands without jostling his torso. Then after a minute of studying a map they were off. The road twisted and turned in front of them as Michael steered the car through the wooded area. The air swirling between the occupants of the vehicle felt combustible, as if striking a match would instantly ignite the charge and there would be no way to stop an explosion. Through the heavy silence, Michael stole a glance at his passenger. Anger radiated off of her very being and it was unsettling because it was not the energy he was used to from her. He had to say something, he wanted to say something, but at the same time he was a coward. He didn't want to be the one to light the match. Besides he didn't know what to say to her. He owed her so many explanations, so many apologies and so much gratitude. It shamed him to think that he had so much to answer for that there was no good place to start. Finally, he couldn't stand it anymore. It was ironic; a quiet guy-- who'd lived much of his life trying to shut out the noise-- suddenly couldn't stand the silence. "I didn't want you to come." "Veronica told me." She replied robotically, not betraying the fact that his words were salt in her wounds. It was an extra twist of the knife to know that despite all she was doing; her presence was so unwelcome to him. From her tone, he realized how his words must have sounded to her, he backtracked. "Don't get me wrong. I'm more grateful than you'll ever know that you're helping Lincoln tonight, but…" "But what?" She asked with practiced indifference. "I hate that you're getting dragged even deeper into this. It wasn't my intention for you to have any involve-" "Listen, Michael, save your speech about not wanting to involve me. I believe that you didn't want to involve me, but you did. I believe that you didn't want to hurt me, but you did. I believe that you didn't want me here tonight, but I'm here. So let's just do what we need to do to save Lincoln, okay?" She finally looked over at him. He glanced at her and saw her resolve. Looking back to the road he agreed, "Okay." But he wasn't feeling okay. The betrayal he saw in her eyes taunted him. He knew he deserved it, but it killed him to know that what he saw there was personal. She obviously felt betrayed by what their personal relationship had been and suddenly he badly wanted to make her believe that not everything had been a lie. After another minute of silence, he spoke again in deceptively calm, cool tones. "You have every right to be mad at me." She turned to look at his profile again, this time his words provoking new fury that suddenly ran hot through her veins. Incredulous at his audacity, she snapped, "I know. I certainly don't need your permission for that." "But you're angry for the wrong reasons." He was trying to make her understand, but at the same time was clueless to his own impudence. Sara almost laughed at his presumptuousness. "Must say I don't really agree with that. Especially since I haven't told you what I'm angry about." "If you tell me what you're angry about, you'll say the things you should be mad about, but it won't be the real reason that you're angry." Sara narrowed her eyes as she studied him for a minute. "Okay, Michael, try this on for size. I made the decision to not lock that door. That's all me. It was conscious and deliberate and I recognize my culpability. But I'm furious that you played the 'Lincoln is innocent' card in order to get me to leave that door unlocked, all the while knowing you were helping eight other prisoners escape. Men who were guilty and dangerous. Six of whom who are now… out there. I left that door unlocked partially because I honestly didn't believe either you or your brother was a threat to anyone on the outside. I didn't sign on for those other men." She looked over at him. "How's that for valid a source of anger?" "Pretty good." He admitted softly, the belt of remorse around his heart cinching tighter. It had become his constant companion for the last two weeks. "Are…" he took a deep breath before asking, "Are you in trouble? Do they suspect it wasn't a mistake?" She looked over at him with disbelief and then shook her head. "Of course they suspect me, Michael. The only thing saving me is my alibi." Just then he pulled into a road behind the small hospital, his eyes casing the joint before they even came to a full stop. "What's your alibi?" He tore his eyes from the building and looked at her with genuine concern as he asked. Her jaw involuntarily clenched. She didn't want him to know this weak and shameful detail about her life. It was humiliating to admit that drug addiction hung like an albatross around her neck and that it had almost killed her. But, sadly, at this point there was really no reason to hide it from him, it wasn't like she was trying to curry his good favor. "They found me at home, OD'd on morphine, near death. My alibi is—conveniently-- that I went back to the prison that night for the morphine, not to leave the door open for you. Though, that didn't occur to me at the time. So they had two choices. A, chalk it up to the Governor's daughter and ex-junkie accidentally leaving a door open while stealing drugs in the process of falling off a three year wagon of sobriety. Or b, accuse the Governor's daughter of leaving the door open purposely in order for her married convict boyfriend to escape. After keeping me under an umbrella of suspicion for over a week and questioning me extensively, they chose a." Michael was having trouble processing everything he was hearing. She'd almost died? It was all news to him. "I didn't… I didn't know. Sara…" She didn't look at him; instead she busied herself gathering the small duffle that they would put the supplies in. "It wasn't in the papers. Everything has been hushed up." "You almost died?" The question threatened to completely choke off his air supply. The thought that he was the reason sent pain slicing through his heart. "Michael," She turned and drilled her eyes through his. "Lincoln is back at that cabin in horrendous pain. We’re here. Let's focus." That was enough to get Michael to center his attention on the task at hand. But he wasn't done with that conversation, not by a long shot. *** Breaking into the small medical center turned out to be a fairly simple prospect. As with most things in the middle of nowhere the doors were all open and security seemed to consist of one camera aimed at the back parking lot. "What about the camera?" She asked once they'd plotted their route in. "Out here, it's probably for show. I doubt it's actually connected to anything." "Just in case… here." She took the baseball cap from her head and handed it to him, before shaking out her hair. "You want me to wear a Northwestern hat?" "If that camera is really taking video of anything, school loyalty is going to have to take a back bench to disguising the shape of your head which has been on every newscast for the last fortnight." Despite the serious nature of the conversation they'd had just minutes earlier, the tone of her voice was more relaxed than it had been since the moment she'd arrived at the cabin. He took advantage of it to try and relieve some of the tension between them. "Fortnight?" His voice held a low chuckle. "It's a word." "Yeah, I know. It's just that no one who is actually alive this century uses it." "Well, I just did. Wear the hat. Just in case." "What about you?" She brought her hair so that it fell forward creating as much a veil as possible and then put the hood up on the navy colored sweatshirt she'd just donned. When she was done she turned her attention back to him. His sleeves were pushed up a few inches on each arm, revealing his most identifiable feature. When she reached over and tugged the fabric over his tattoos, her hands came into contact with his badly scraped ones. Holding one of his hands in hers gingerly, she looked up and met his eye. "I'll look at these when we're done with Lincoln." His breathing arrested as he felt the tender way she touched him. He'd sorely missed that over the last… fortnight. "You don't need-" "Don't argue with me, Michael." For the first time that day she saw the old smirk reappear on his lips. "Okay." It was almost dark as they walked close to the wall to avoid the security camera, in case it was in fact working. Once inside, they made several wrong turns before finding a supply room they could raid. Sara pushed back the hood of her sweatshirt and was about to start grabbing all the stitching and bandages they would need when Michael grabbed her arm before she could begin. Startled, she turned back to him in question and watched as he pulled a couple of pairs of latex gloves from a box and handed her a pair. "Fingerprints… in case they figure out there was a robbery." Sara nodded quickly and snapped them on, but at the same time his words brought into sharp focus what they were doing. It might seem hypocritical since it was not the first time she'd stolen from a hospital, but it bothered her. "I hate that we're stealing… at all, but especially from such a small hospital. Everything costs money and that's in short supply in rural clinics like this one." "We'll send money when this is all over, I promise." Michael replied from his spot at the door, before whispering harshly, "Someone's coming." "What do we do?!" Sara whispered frantically in return. Acting in a split second, Michael opened a second door in the room which happened to be a tiny broom closet. Grabbing her hand he stepped in and pulled her with him as he shut the door in one impressively fluid motion. Sara's heart was beating a mile a minute as they heard the door to the supply room open. But she wasn't sure what was more affecting, the person just on the other side of the door who might discover them at any moment, or the man standing behind her. Actually, pressed behind her was a more apt description. The closet was small and Sara tingled at the sensation of his broad chest sealed firmly against her back and his warm breath on her ear. She could almost swear to feeling his heart beat against her shoulder. It seemed just as elevated as hers. One of his arms was tight around her waist keeping her firmly against him. Where he thought she was going to run off to in the tiny closet, she wasn't sure but she stood still in his embrace all the same. It felt an achingly good place to be and she berated herself for enjoying it so much. Michael held her to him as if the ship was going down and he was her life vest. He wished they could maneuver in the closet so he was in front and she was behind him, in case the door opened and they were confronted, but it was impossible in the small space so he contented himself with holding her protectively to him, ready to pull her so they were side by side and he could shield her body if necessary. However, as much as his posture was defense, he couldn't help but notice how soft and warm she was in his arms and how right it felt to be close to her. So it wasn't in all together discomfort that they stood like that as the seconds ticked by. They heard the person moving around the room, but it didn't seem like he or she had any interest in the broom closet, so both of them were able to relax a modicum. When they heard the door click and the person presumably leave the supply room, Michael slowly opened the closet door with his free arm and they both peered out. The first thing he noticed was that the hospital worker who had just been there had left keys in the drug cabinet. "Bingo." Michael whispered as he propelled her forward until they were once again in the supply room. "Anything we need from here?" Sara needed a second to get over being released from his embrace. She inhaled sharply and forced herself to focus. "Antibiotics, tetanus, lidocaine…" "What about pain killer?" Michael looked at the drug cabinet to Sara. Several bottles of morphine were lined up neatly for the taking. "Yeah." Sara swallowed hard and felt herself begin to break into a cold sweat. Her hands trembled slightly, but she hid that by keeping them busy. "Are you sure?" He looked at her worriedly after what he'd just learned in the car. "Lincoln has wire through his abdomen and it's gonna hurt like hell when we remove it even with the lidocaine. It's the least we can do for him. But you grab it; I don't even want to touch it." He nodded and put it in the bag with the other supplies. "We better hurry before whomever left their keys, comes back." Sara nodded and surveyed their rather extensive stash. While she grabbed a few extra pairs of latex gloves, she looked up at him naively. "What about you, do you have insulin?" He just peered down at her with apology in his eyes. "Sara…" It took only a second for her to process the truth. "You don't have diabetes." His gaze fell to the ground in answer. "But the test showed you were diabetic." She asked trying to wrap her mind around the depth of his deception. "Pugnac." "God, Michael!" She spit the words out angrily and then whapped him on the arm. To keep from inciting her further, he kept the humor out of his voice, but it was hard considering the absurdity of the situation. "After everything, that's what you choose to get violent about?" "I'm a doctor. You had me administering insulin to a patient who didn't need it. That could cause complications." "Yeah, but I'm the patient and it was only for about six weeks." She just shook her head angrily. "Let's just get out of here." *** Just like the ride to the medical clinic, the ride back to the cabin began in silence. Sara stared out the passenger window at the dusky sky. After all that had happened to her in the last few weeks, she could barely believe where she was or what she was doing. She especially couldn't believe who she was with. One of the most wanted men in America. In the last week she'd thought about what she would say to him if she ever got the chance, well here was her chance, but predictably those rehearsed speeches now failed her. She knew she wanted answers from him, the whole truth. But after learning that even his health had been a lie, she wasn't sure she could handle the whole truth. "Did you ever tell me the truth, about anything?" She finally asked without turning from her window. He knit his brows together in deliberation, as he tried to come up with an answer she deserved. He didn't want to blow this opportunity to make her understand that not every thing had been an act. "My name is Michael Scofield. I'm 31, and went to Loyola." As if to emphasize that point he pulled off her Northwestern cap he'd been wearing and handed it back to her. He met her eye as she took the cap back from him. "And it really is possible that we could have met out at a bar during college, I would have been attracted to you and asked you out, and in that life, today, maybe we'd have 2.5 kids, live in Winnetka and drive matching German minivans." "You don't need to do that." Her voice was laced with tension as she took the cap and started fiddling with it in her lap. His gaze went back to the road. "Do what?" "I'm going to help Lincoln; you don’t need to keep working me. It's unnecessary and embarrassing." Michael twitched at the accusation, though he knew he deserved it. "I'm not working you. I was… it was just one of those 'in another life's' we talked about once. You asked about the truth, not everything was a lie." She just looked at him incredulously and then back to the passenger window. "I'm sorry, Sara." "That's okay," she replied with a humorless chuckle. "The thought of matching German minivans kind of amused me, although we're both way too edgy for Winnetka. You should work on your line." "Not about that." That got her attention and she looked back at him. "I'm sorry about everything." The honesty of his sentiment rung out of his every pore and she had no choice but to take him at face value. "The thing is, Michael, I know you are, but it just doesn't make me feel all that much better right now." "Okay." He replied after a few seconds of heavy silence. "Will you at least tell me if you're okay? After the… overdose, I mean." "I'm okay." "I didn't… I didn't know you had a problem." He glanced over at her as she was once again staring out the side window. "How would you?" Not wanting to get into the research he'd done on her, he misdirected with, "You said you almost died." "I did. Someday I'll have to thank Katie for ratting me out and in turn, saving my life." Michael furrowed his brow. "What do you mean?" "That night… the night of the break, Katie told them that I'd been there and that…" "And what?" She cringed inwardly at what she was about to say. "And that I had a thing for you. That was enough to get them to send the police to my apartment. They found me. Almost D.O.A." After he let those words settle around him. A lump formed in his throat. In gravely tones he made a statement of fact, "It's my fault that you took those drugs that night." That got her to turn from the window. "Michael, I'll tell you what they tell us in recovery. Nobody else stuck the needle in my arm. It was all me. I'm angry at you for many, many things, but not that. I don't blame you and it does neither of us any good for you to beat yourself up over it." He let that sink in before replying. "If it's okay with you, I think I'll beat myself up over it anyway." "Suit yourself." At the moment, she had her own demons to content with she wasn't currently equipped to battle his as well. The indifferent way she said the words twisted his gut. "Sara, if I could go back and change things-" "What?" she demanded with heat that wasn't there a minute ago. "You'd what? Not pretend to have diabetes? Not plan your escape route through my infirmary. Not ask for my help with the keys. Not tell a lie every other word. What?" He stared straight ahead at the road, the only clue that her words were hitting the intended target was a vein that worked near his temple when he said, "I don't know. Something." TBC... |